"ok," as i smile, i say

ok. ok. ok . o k . . o  k  . .   .
yes, i will do that.
i will be
what you want from me
head nodding, uh huh, oh yeah
i will be
what you dont want to do
is me
i will be    it
all day long for you
so you can
have a seat and relax
so you can feel alright later
feel like the man
feel big and
over
powering.
ok, yes
of course i will
oh definitely
as i smile
i say
i hate all that you are
i hate so much i cry
on porch steps
near trash cans
in spiderwebs
i dont care
cause im crying
at work
in bathrooms
hiding in petting
your dog
because i need warm things
to close my arms around.
to enfold into
like a pretzel
because my mom is far
and all i have is my sleeve